I am a child of GOD...

2005-12-10T19:35:00.000+08:00

SWEETER
Everyday with YOU LORD
Sweeter than the day before
Everyday with YOU LORD
Sweeter than the day before
Every morning I will worship
Every evening I'll adore
Cause everyday with YOU is sweeter
Sweeter than before
What a priviledge to know you like i know you
To be loved like you love me
What an honor to worship truly worship
From this heart that you have freed
From the rising of the sun
To the setting of the same
What a wonder to live life
Really live life
Overcoming anything
What a reason to lift up freely lift up
Everyday My everything
From the rising of the sun
To teh setting of the same
Everyday Everyday with you LORD
Everyday Sweeter than the day before

2005-10-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

COUNTING MY BLESSINGS

I'm so selfish and self-centered lately.I always think of things which I dont have ,as a result,nadedepressed lang ako.masyado akong mapaghanap ng mga bagay na wala ako,mga bagay na kung iisipin ko ay wala namang kabuluhan o eternal value.masyado akong nag iisip ng mga bagay na hindi ko kayang gawin o hindi ko kayang makuha.Buti na lang andian lang palagi si JESUS,palagi nia pinapa alala sa akin na NAPAKA SWERTE KO DAHIL INILIGTAS NIA AKO.kaya kesa sa malungkot ,naisip ko na magpasalamat sa DIYOS sa lahat,meron man o wala ako nun..
LORD MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT PO SA:

-pamilya ko lalo na sa INA KO at malakas pa sia at may maayos na tirahan at tahimik na buhay.Mahal na Mahal ko po siya.

-sa mga kapatid ko na mahal na mahal ko at mahal na mahal ako.pati din sa napaka dami ko ng mga pamangkin na makukulit at malulusog

-sa PILIPINAS dahil malaya naming naipapahayag ang aming pananampalatay sa inyo

-sa CCF na spiritual home ko,sa elders namin at lahat ng churchmates lalo na sa D12 ko,kay ate winnie na aking parang pangalawang ina

-sa BSK family ko at sa mga kids na tinuturuan ko

-sa CCC-makati influencers family ko lalo na kay ate grace

-sa mga kaibigan ko christian at non christians

-sa profession ko at sa clinic na pinahiram nio sa akin

-sa mga pasyente ko na nagtitiwala sa kakayahan ko bilang dentista

-sa mga kamag anak ko

-sa helper ko kasi pag gising ko sa umaga malinis na ang bahay ko,tinitimpla nia ko ng kape ko at inaasikaso nia ako at lahat ng mga gamit ko

-sa mga kapitbahay ko

-sa hininga ko bawat segundo

-sa lakas ko,sa talino,sa bahay ko na hindi tumutulo kapag umuulan ,sa aircon at malambot na kama ko,sa tv,sa computer,sa cell fone,sa mga pagkain,sa mga bags,damit,etc.. etc...etc..

LORD,MARAMING SALAMAT DIN PO SA MGA BAGAY NA WALA AKO GAYA NG:

-asawa..kasi po mas madami akong pagkakataon at oras na makapagsilbi sa yo sa ngayon

-sariling kotse ..kasi nahihiya ako manghiram sa ate ko at naiiwasan ko ang paggala ng pag gala na walang katuturan

-madaming pera..kasi po natututunan ko ang mamuhay ng simple at mag pahalaga sa maraming bagay maliit man o malaki

Ano pa ba?..Teka,ang konti lang pala ng mga bagay na wala ako kasi si JESUS ay sobra sobra na para sa akin..Nahirapan ako mag isip ng mga bagay na wala ako kesa sa mga meron ako na galing sa DIYOS.

HIGIT SA LAHAT MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT PO HESUS, SA WALANG HANGGANG BUHAY NA IBINIGAY NIO SA AKIN SA PAMAMAGITAN NG BIYAYA NINYO.SALAMAT PO HESUS SA PAGSASAKRIPISYO NIYO AT PAGKAMATAY PARA ILIGTAS AKO SA AKING MGA KASALANAN.

Hay,napaka blessed ko pala na tao...napaka dami kong bagay na dapat ipag pasalamat sa DIYOS.In fact,kulang pa nga ang mga espasyo para maisulat ko ang lahat ng blessings ko meron man o wala ako,BLESSING PA RIN YUN.:)

2005-09-28T15:23:00.000+08:00

Ang Aking Ina
Simple,Maasikaso at Konserbatibo
Mga salita para sa Ina ko
Minsan masungit at may pagka Diretso
Mga salita na binibitawan nito

Lumaki ako na puno ng asikaso
Kaya naman paminsan ako ay may pagka abusado
Kapag sumosobra ay kinakastigo
Nang aking Ina na Disiplinado

Ang aming buhay ay simple lamang
Puno ng ligaya at paminsan ay lumbay
Ngunit lahat ay nararausan sa gabay ng PANGINOON
At nang INA naming tunay

Siya ang haligi at ilaw ng aming tahanan
Dahil sa mga pagkukulang ng aming tatay
Mahirap at Masakit kanyang napagdaanan
Para lang sa AMIN na kanyang MGA ANAK

Lumaki ako na SOBRA ANG RESPETO
Sa aking INA na karesperespeto
Kaya naman sa buhay ako ay natuto
Lumaki sa mga payo ng INA ko

Kaya naman ngayon na AKo ay malaki na
At handa na sa pagpapamilya
Ang mga payo at bilin ng aking INa
Ay isang KAYAMANAN na aking dala dala

Isang kayaman na walang katapat na pera
Na hindi mananakaw o makukuha
Pero maipamamana ko sa iba
Lalo na sa aking magiging pamilya

Ako ay AKo,Hindi dahil sa galing ko
KUndi dahil sa AWA NG PANGINOON KO
AT sa gabay ng INA KO
Kaya naman hanggang sa huling hininga ko
INA KO,INA KO!!..MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT PO.
AT MAHAL NA MAHAL KO PO KAYO :)

I love you nanay ANITA..I THANKED GOD FOR YOU...I wouldn't be a person of who I am now..With OUT You..

2005-09-17T16:34:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE....&.....HELLO

There is really no easy way to say goodbye..Goodbyes are always sad,painful,mind blowing & heart breaking..Closing something or ending a relationship with someone is always very crucial..always accompanied with sobs & tears and.. deep breath.
I remember saying goodbye to someone I dearly loved,that was one of the hardest decisions I ever made in my life..It was too painful that no words could ever describe it..
Another thing that really drove me crazy was when I said goodbye to several members of our family who died..Though ,as what they always say,DEATH is one of the certain things that could happen to a person..but still,It is one of the hardests to accept..knowing that ..You will not be seeing him\her anymore for the rest of your life..

But on the contrary,Goodbyes also give as an opportunity to say HELLO..Hello to a new day,a new hope and a new life...Amidst with a lot of trials and problems ..A NEW BEGINNING IS CERTAIN TO HAPPEN...Whether we like it or not ..It will definitely SETS IN..
I qoute.."Never harbor anger for those who put you to death..for they gave you a CHANCE TO LIVE AGAIN."(by Lindsay Ballard)

Come to think of it?It is very true that goodbyes gave us so much pains but..looking on the brighter side of it... it also gives us an opportunity to move forward...and continue to press on towards a prize.. Let us not cling on the past .Let bygone be bygone..We can't do anything about our past..We can no longer changed what already had happened..but We can always improve and and do better...

Goodbye & Hello are always together....Goodbye to our sins....& say HELLO TO JESUS..Our REDEEMER,OUR SAVIOR.....OUR ETERNITY.
So.everytime,we are facing a heartbreaking goodbye to someone or something,Let us also remember that A SWEET HELLO is in store for us...:)

2005-09-17T10:43:00.000+08:00

WHAT IF?
I'm quite so emotional right now..Is there something new?.Ganito naman ako palagi eh..madaming tanong,madaming dahilan,madaming paghihimutok..I am like a kid always making tantrums to my Father..To my PERFECT FATHER...

"What if my heart stops beating?"
"What if my heart stops loving?"
"What if my heart stops caring?"
"What if my heart stops asking?

"So many questions..but the answers are so few..
All I really mean is..I LOVE YOU.."

Hay,ALL THIS TIME...I really love this song from side A..I feel like "LOVE "is in the air...
I've had my own shares of heartaches,and my own shares of happiness as far as "loving an opposite sex" is concerned...But,being single and unattached at the moment..with out any "object of endearment"..made me realized ONE IMPORTANT THING..that indeed NO EARTHLY MAN COULD EVER MADE ME FEEL LOVED & COMPLETE ALLTHIS TIME..ONLY JESUS & JESUS ALONE..

I am such a hopeless romantic girl..always inlove with my man...everytime I have one...I remember that from the time that I open my eyes in the morning until closing them in the evening..My man will always be in my mind & heart..I always love to share every single event or important thing that is part of my being..I love to "nurture" relationships ..I love to say ..I love you's every so often to make him feel how much important he is to me & to my life..

But,Inspite & despite of everything,Problems & trials will always be there..Periods of adjustments & getting to know each other better & better every single day..So many "kiss and make ups"..so many self denial and dying on our own selves to forgive and forget everything..
Hey,Isn't that in following JESUS thats ALL WE HAVE TO DO AS WELL?TO DIE FROM OUR OWN SELVES?and ALLOW THE HOLY SPIRIT IN US TO REIGN?..

It made me realized therefore that really,... the TRUE SECRET OF A SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP IS ONLY..... JESUS...A couple should die from themselves and FOCUS ON JESUS..As they focus on HIM...their relationship & love for each other will CONTINUE TO GROW AND LAST FOR A LIFETIME...

I am now seeing my "love story" with in the context of GOD..I am now learning to "love" the way GOD wants..although,I am in the process of learning..I am enjoying it..because JESUS is my teacher..

Looking back ..I've realized now,that with JESUS..I FOUND THE GODLY MAN OF MY LIFE...& CERTAINLY MY GODLY HOME IN HEAVEN...
Now,Tell me?.... Do I still have the right to ask?......WHAT IF?

2005-09-05T18:12:00.000+08:00

MY BAPTISM

September 03,2005
Legend Villas
Pastor Joey Geronimo
8:00am
This day is so special to me..Finally my long wait is over..It took me more than 2 years(since I accepted Jesus as my LORD & SAVIOR) to do my act of public declaration of my faith..
It is indeed with so much JOY that ,I am declaring to the public that I AM A FOLLOWER OF JESUS CHRIST..As what the song says,..

" No turning back..No turning back..
Even though ,No One joins me..
I will still fOLLOW..
No turning back ..No turning back "

Baptism is not a means of salvation
It is a declaration of salvation
I am so blessed to have ate win,ate leng,& among others to witnessed this very special day ..But above all..GOD ALMIGHTY IS MY ULTIMATE WITNESS :)

2005-09-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

MY HEART'S DESIRE

It's so gloomy outside...It looks like a heavy rain will start to fall in a while..Everything seems so quiet here..It's kinda' unusual for me..coz normally in our place ,I would always hear the kids downstairs playing & giggling with each other..with their own "world"..They were so active & very energetic..Nothing & No one can prevent them from expressing themselves..They are very "real" with their feelings..No pretentions..no hypocrisy!!!what you see is what you get from them..They don't care whether You like them or not..For them, THey are just being "REAL".

Being "REAL?"....well...I feel like expressing my 'real innermost feelings' right now...Don't know.. but ,I am feEling a certain high now... emotionally "high"...Don't know if it has something to do with the weather? or it has something to do with the quietness of the ambience here?..I feel so nostalgic..

I know I have already "put" everything in oblivion...But I just feel like reminiscing the past now..But not the "person" anymore but the things ..I enjoyed doing with someone I love..It just dawned on me that It's been almost a year that I am single and unattached..I'm happy the way things are going in my life now..knowing that JESUS is in my heart..I always make myself believe that having JESUS in my heart is more than enough for me ..He is more than enough to make me COMPLETE..but the reality bytes...The reality is there that I am a "woman" who needs a partner in "flesh & bone"..

A partner whom I can walk with as I walk with the LORD..A partner whom I can share my life with..Someone who is God's Perfect Choice for me..Someone who will ACCEPT me for who I am..Together,We will GLORIFY GOD in our relationship...

Though,I am happy as a single..but I'm sure Life will be a lot happier if You have somebody whom YOU can talk with about anything & everything..From deep issues to shallow ones..Somebody whom You can laugh & cry with..Somebody who will accompany you every sunday to the worship services..Somebody who will pick you up and bring you home..Somebody whom You can be very open with.. with out embarrasment..somebody whom I'll text as soon as I woke up until the time I close my eyes to sleep..

Somebody whom You will celebrate special occassions with like bdays,anniversaries,xmas,valentines day etc....Someone who will bring you to concerts,church events & most of all someone who will care & love you deeply as a woman..I really missed dining out at a very cozy restaurant or watching a movie or concerts with a very special person in my life..I missed reading the bible & talking about GOD with someone so dear to me..I missed the things that I love and enjoy doing with a partner ..but I don't miss the man himself..

As I write all these things ..I just can't help it but to cry & feel so sad..I can feel the outflow of my heart's desire ..The desire whom I know comes also from GOD..I will just delight myself to the LORD & CLAIM that He will GIVE ME the DESIRES OF MY HEART..I can't wait to see "little donna" & little boy ( whoever the man I'll end up with)running back & forth inside our house or running inside their rooms in sunday school..I can't wait to see me a " mom" chasing over them with towels to make sure that their backs are not that wet...& most of all I can't wait to see myself submitting with high RESPECT to my husband whom GOD has been CHOSEN just for me..and Together....We will GLORIFY GOD in our family..

Hay...what a dream....that is not with in my control.A dream that only GOD can fullfill in his PERFECT TIME....

2005-08-31T11:20:00.000+08:00

Thinking of Seven

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME

1.Mag "backslide" sa faith
2.I'll marry someone who is so ungentle & so proud
3.mag slide sa pool coz i don't know how to swim
4.snakes,worms or mga kalahi nila
5.magka wrinkles na bata pa
6.loosing my mom & loved ones
7.mawalan ng lisensya as a dentist

SEVEN THINGS I LIKE THE MOST

1.To GLORIFY GOD in everything that I DO
2.Quality & bonding time with my family,friends & churchmates
3.listening to worship songs & lovesongs (kakainlove :) kilig!!! )
4.watching movies & dressing up (girly stuff!!)
5.travelling esp. long hour trips with someone I love (kelan kaya yun? )
6.dental works
7.encouraging people

SEVEN THINGS INSIDE MY ROOM

1.Bible (i read a verse or chapter before i sleep)
2.Tv ( i love watching)
3.kikay kit (gusto ko mabango ako bago matulog para mabango sa dream ko heheh)
4.aircon( trivia!!! nahihirapan ako matulog pag mainit)
5.telephone
6.stuff toys
7.ofcourse my kikay outfits & big pillow na yakap ko habang natutulog

RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1.mukha lang ako high maintenance sa labas pero in my heart i'm just a simple lady with simple dreams
2.i'm dreaming to become the best wife & mother i could ever be
3.i'm very emotional & sentimental
4.hopeless romantic & idealistic (tipong pang fairy tale story ..& they live happilly ever after)
5.i love pictures ,cell fones,digicams
6.can't sleep with lights on
7.gusto ko palagi terno terno gamit ko kahit sa haws

SEVEN THINGS I PLAN TO DO BEFORE I DIE

1.Have a Godly husband,children & a Godly home
2.visited the promised land
3.romantic get away with my husband in paris or europe (God willing)
4.sent my children to reputable schools with great FEAR to GOD
5.treat my mom abroad
6.have people to minister or disciples
7.Support a ministry

SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO

1.surgical dental procedures (kahit oozzing with blood pa yan!!)
2.committ myself to someone I dearly love
3.mingle with people in all walks of life
4.i can "endure" hardships" or even poverty with my husband if necessary(pero wag naman sana heheh binawi !!..think positive!!:) )
5.i can cook,iron or wash clothes (akala nio hindi ako marunong noh?!!!)
6.i can adopt to any situation
7.i can give cheerfully with out expecting anything in return

SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T DO

1.Put the name of GOD in shame or ASSAULTING HIM
2.To become unfaithful with someone I love (NO WAY!!!)
3.steal something
4.never will I use or step on any one to get my dream
5.i can't deliberately hurt my mom
6.i can't give "myself" outside the context of marriage
7.I can't get into any relationship with a married or attached men

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT ME TO OPPOSITE SEX

1.heart for GOD
2.intelligence (oh boy!!!i'm really impressed!!kahit hindi gwapo basta matalino..kanta yun ah!!:) )
3.good grooming ( lalo na mabango..)
4.sweet,gentle,HUMBLE & understanding
5. has a leadership quality
6.growing CHRISTIAN (growing talaga hindi basta christian lang! )
7with sense of humor ( para mapatawa nia ako )

SEVEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX
1.PROUD ( feeling alam lahat)
2.seloso na wala sa lugar ( yung tipong pati mga pasyente ko pinagseselosan ? )
3.pakielamero sa expression ko ng identity ko at fashion(ganito suutin mo..wag ganyan!!)
4.playboy (hmmppp..kainis!!!)
5.insensitive (nakakalimutan ang anniversary,or important dates)
6.walang sense of romance masyado stiff at strict!!
7.authoritative at napaka domineering(yung tipong hindi nkikinig?gusto siya palagi masusunod,...ano ko slave? puro utos!!)

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1.really?
2.kewl!!!
3.hey girl!! (esp.with janet )
4.good!! (lalo na sa pamngkin ko pag tinuturuan ko ng homeworks )
5.shocks!! (pag nagugulat lng po ako!!)
6.hmppppppppp (pag naiinis na ko sa sitwasyon o sa tao)
7.lolz!! (kpag kachat ko mga pamangkin ko abroad..feeling teen ager din ako hehehe)

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1.Bradd Pitt
2.Ben Affleck
3.Tom cruise(dati ko pa crush nung bata pa ko)
4.John Lloyd Cruz(boy next door image!!)
5.Piolo Pascual(napaka humble ng dating nia..christian pa!!)
6.Nicolas Cage(con air,face off galing!! )
7.taga ccf heheeheh (secret....wink ..teka celebrity ba sia?sorry breaking the rule!! :) )

SEVEN PEOPLE I WANT TO TAKE THIS QUIZ

1.Ate winnie
2.Ate grace
3.tin
4.may
5.jean
6.deth
7.my crush ( teka?paano nia malalaman?secret nga eh hahhaah!! :) )

2005-08-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

CCF @ 21

Araneta Coliseum...August 28,2005...Thousand of people were gathered together as we CCF'ers (with our first timer guests) celebrates GOD's FAITHFULLNESS to our SPIRITUAL FAMILY...CCF'ers all over the place (from north to south,east to west) came together as ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY PROCLAIMING GOD's NEVER ENDING GRACE TO US..
We maybe diversified in our economic status,profession,age,sex & family background..but ,we are UNITIED TOGETHER in ONE MISSION to CREATE COMMITTED FOLLOWERS OF JESUS CHRIST as a response to our greatest calling and commision in Matthew 28:18-20...
It was such a 'heart warming" experience to see how lives has been TRANSFORMED by JESUS ...hearing different testimonies of hope,love and courage to STAND FIRM with HIM inspite and despite of hardships...because of God's invitation to all.."Come to me..all of you who are heavy-laden..and I will give you rest"....Indeed,relationships,career or anything or any one in this world could not equate or surpass GOD's assurance of COMPLETE REST WITH HIM..
He is the ONLY ONE that could make us COMPLETE..
As I watch the people from a far..I AM REALLY SO AMAZED ON GOD'S POWER!!HE is REALLY SO AWESOME & FAITHFUL!!!..CCF is CCF today because of HIS GRACE & GRACE ALONE...None of us could ever claim any GLORY aside from JESUS HimSELF...who is our SAVIOR & LORD...
We are TRULY BLESSED with a GODLY LEADERSHIP in the persons of PETER TANCHI & the rest of our elders ..who are very dedicated and always available to be used BY GOD... Who are very dedicated to "train" us as well in discipleship to "achieve" our mission..We are blessed to have faithful men & women in music ministry for the wonderful music..to the ushers with their patience & smiling faces in assisting us..to the song leaders and dancers .....and to those who were at the tech ministry...For with out them this event will not be a great success..and ofcourse to GOD ALMIGHTY who is the ULTIMATE REASON FOR OUR LIVING..TO HIM BE ALL THE PRAISES AND GLORY FOR EVER...

2005-08-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

H.U.M.B.L.E
what is the opposite of PRIDE?...Hmmnnnnnnnnnn?Let's see...

H-eaven given by GRACE thru Faith

U-nto

M-en

B-elieving on the

L-OVE of JESUS resulting to

E-TERNITY WITH GOD

hmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnn?...I'd rather be humble than to be proud..:)

2005-08-27T16:01:00.000+08:00

P....R....I....D....E

P- eople
R-eluctant
I-n complettely
D-edicating their lives to JESUS thus...
E-xalting their OWN SELVES rather than GOD

.....am just curious?...are you one of them?.....just asking!!!GODBLESS EVERY ONE!!!and together...let's bREAK THE PRIDE!!!!!!:) (i must confess..i'm guilty:(

2005-08-26T17:10:00.000+08:00

SOMETIMES

sometimes............................... the world's so gloomy
full of friends........................... who betray me
full of people.......................... who put me down
full of individuals..................who belittle me
it seems as though...............i'm desperate & shattered
but I AM NOT!!!
WHY?
because JESUS LOVES ME!!!
the moment that he doesn't
then...I'M NOTHING!!!
I LOVE HIM .........................NO MATTER WHAT :)

2005-08-26T08:42:00.000+08:00

"SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU ARE MY CHILD
AND I AM YOUR FATHER"

( 1 JOHN )

Just woke up..After I prayed,I opened my computer while drinking my cup of coffee..Just wanna' read my blog entries last night..To HELP me better understand myself thru my writtings..I am really so expressive..I don't know if it's an asset or a liability?..My strength or my weakness?...MAybe,I'll generalize na lang..Everything should be in " MODERATION"...I should not be too "stingy" nor too loose...If things are too personal...kay GOD na lang ..kasi there are some people out there ,na namimis interpret ako :( I'm learning na din "not to give praises too much"...esp.. to those whom I know might "stumble" because of me..It's also part of my growing..

Going back to my title...This verse really makes me FEEL SO MUCH LOVED ...Imagine ,GOD telling me that he loves me?..simply because I AM HIS CHILD? ..and HE IS MY FATHER...?.:) Hay,I really felt so GOOD!!!..It's so unexpainable!!!..Honestly,I was not really fortunate to "feel" the love of an earthly father...I was 7 when my mom and my dad separated...I was in my 4th year high shool when he died...But in my GROWING YEARS ..GOD is So GRACIOUS TO MY MOM & MY SIBLINGS and to me coz ..I was never INSECURE..I've always been bubbly and confident about my identity...Because my mom will just always remind me to always "look 'at the positive results of a negative situation and pray ...M y mom would always tell me that my true dad is up there in heaven and he sees me..:)
Looking back,maybe because of that situation,my mom was so "strict"..She wouldn't allow me to have male friends or to be "close" with them..As a result...I don't really have " close male friends"..Except to the ones i had a relationship with..
Surprisingly,When ..i became a CHRISTIAN..I've noticed that ..fellowshipping is so rampant..Later,I've realized that I have to be "open" in making friends with them esp.if they are "matured CHRISTIANS"...I thought,If he is matured...I can become "open"..With out "worrying" that I mayt or he mayt stumble...But..I was wrong..I can never be "that open"..esp... if we are both singles...Temptation is there..The satan is attacking with double efforts ..taking advantage of the situation to "attack" our testimonies..To stumble & create confussions with in me..I have to really "protect" my testimony and the testimony of my fellow believer ...I should not allow that to "side truck" my true GOAL...which is to walk with the LORD..To FOCUS on GOD..not on the PEOPLE..bec..all of us are sinners and weak apart from the grace of GOD..All of us are candidates to "hurt" each other..
So,my "lesson"?...tama talaga ang nanay ko...Wag masyado makipag kaibigan sa lalaki...acquaintance lang..or if ever maging friends...Wag madaliin maging open...kahit sabihin mo pa na 'matured'...para wag ako masaktan ....I was just sad and hurt in a way...But I know GOD would make things okay ...because he loves me..simply beC... I AM HIS CHILD... :)

2005-08-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

"THE BONDAGE BREAKER!!! "
This could be an answered prayer for me..I was asking some friends last week end regarding this thing...Bondage from my past!!..How can I possibly break it?..Is there something that I need to do?..something to read or learn to further facilitate the healing process?
Hmmmnnn..I know ,I am already healed by the grace of GOD....I know ,I am no longer in bondage with someone or anything from my past..Why did I say so?..coz GOD HAS DELIVERED ME FROM ALL OF THEM LONG BEFORE THAT I OBEYED HIM...I AM SURE OF THAT!!!as SURE AS MY GOING TO HEAVEN....
But...this week end something came up..I was kinda' affected over things..that led me to this issue again..I prayed about this because during those times i was really so UPSET!! that i'm willing to do everything to flee me..And soon after... a friend of mine lend me this book entitled..."THE BONDAGE BREAKER from NEIL T.ANDERSON"..So,I got so excited coz I BELIEVE ..NOTHING HAPPENS BY ACCIDENT..GOD HAS A REASON FOR ME TO READ THIS...as my LAST TEST..i guess...
Yesterday,I brought the book with me at CCF.my discipler saw me holding it...I've shared her that I am excited to read this..With SO MUCH CONFIDENCE...SHE TOLD ME.." Anak !!I'm telling YOU...You don't need that anymore...I can SEE you're no longer in bondage"...And then..I smiled at her and said,"Oo nga po...talaga nay?sa tingin mo din hindi ko na kailangan basahin?" ( don't remember the exact words but something like that!!the "essence" is there"..
So,in short,I started to read the book kanina..and surprisingly..my discipler is RIGHT!!!I can't relate to the book...nor to the stories of those in bondage...GOD is so GRACIOUS TO ME that I didn't experience those..or maybe he really healed me....As a result...I didn't finish reading it..I lost my "interest' about it..
If I were to assess myself based on the book..I am FAR MORE FREE FROM THE BONDAGE OF MY PAST and even READY FOR A NEW BONDAGE...(If GOD willing..)..
Not only did I realize that I'm FREE in bondage..HEY!!!I've realized that indeed for 2 years that my discipler knew me...She practically can ASSESS ME AS A PERSON AS WELL...WOW!!!GOD gave her so much wisdom...She knows where to meet me..and when to meet me..She knows my weaknesses and deal them in love not in anger..She knows my strength and pushes me to reach my potentials.. when i cry..she cries with me,when i laugh she laughs as well..when i'm hurt(just like what she told me last monday morning!!) she was also hurt..coz she knows where i am coming from.. she knows the "purity" of my motives but sometimes careless..when i'm inlove..she's also inlove!!!(hehhehe joke lng!!!coz im not inlove!!wala nga akong object of affection rayt now eh!! practice lang !!!sabi kasi iclaim mo daw eh kahit wala pa name!!malay mo asa tabi tabi lang di ba?heheh :))No wonder!!... I love her so dearly...No wonder..It's so EASY for me to SUBMIT to her...because more than a friend..She is my "spiritual" mother...Now...I know!!!...It's CONFIRMED!!!......I'm REALLY IN BONDAGE!!! ....IN BONDAGE NOT WITH MY PAST...but WITH MY DISCIPLER....AND SURELY...I DON'T WANT TO BE "DELIVER" FROM THIS BONDAGE!!!...I THANK GOD FOR HER!!!:) (wink)

2005-08-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

WHEN IT RAINS....IT POURS
Rains just keep on pouring not outside my house...but inside my heart..I just couldn't contained them that i have to overflow coz if not i'll surely have a heart attack...I can litterally feel my heart beating too fast not because i'm inlove ..but simply because i'm drowning...drowning from my own emotions..
Emotion is really so deceiving...Everytime ,we are at the height of anger,pain,disappointments & fear ..It seems that problems are BIGGER than our GOD...It seems that the world is falling apart..It seems that our life has been shattered..But these are just the by- products of our emotions...thats why CHRISTIANITY should never be based on "FEELING'" but rather should be based on the "FILLING"...Filling of the holy spirits..
It's been my 4th day of my struggles and by the grace of GOD...I am CONFIDENT that I am on my way to VICTORY!!.....I am excited coz I know that the ARMOR OF GOD that he gave me is MORE THAN SUFFICIENT ENOUGH for me to STAND FIRM...I am excited coz I know ..I'll be victorious over this pride and emotions that are inside me...I am speaking confidently not because of my own wisdom but because of the promises of GOD...Ephesians 3:20 says that, "GOD IS ABLE TO DO IMMEASURABLY MORE THAN ALL WE ASK OR IMAGINE"...
This verse doesn't mean that God is able only to do "some" but rather "ALL"....Does all include my pains?..Does it include my pride?..How about my problems?...Or how about my little "mis understanding "with a brother"?...
ALL simply means EVERYTHING..Can You possibly think of something that GOD CAN'T DO?....NOTHING!!!NOTHING AT ALL!!!...So,Why will i worry about my struggles?...Why will I allow my "emotions" to ruin or hinder me from walking?...
Indeed.. when it rains it really pours....But GOD PROMISES US that no matter how "strong" the rains maybe...He CAN STOP IT!!!!! and He WILL RISE UP THE SUN SHINING SO BRIGHT IN YOUR FACE...like what he did..when he RISE US FROM OUR DEATHS brought about by our SINS...:)
On my 4th day now...though the SUN is not yet shining...but the rain is starting to subside...A new HOPE ...that soon...the SUN WILL RISE UP .. And if it DOES !!!....My "JOY" WILL BE COMPLETE :)

2005-08-25T11:53:00.000+08:00

TAMA NA!!!SOBRA NA!!!!!
hmmpppp... :( Tama na nga ang mga madadrama kong blog entries..buti na lang submissive ako sa discipler ko... na eedit nia ang mga ibang blogs ko heheheh(ito kaya iedit nia?hehehh..love you po!! :) )basta yung mga emosyon ko noong mga nakaraang araw asa ibang file ko na lang..it's between me,GOD &my discipler na lang...kasi masyadong mala tele-novela ang aking mga saloobin(oh di ba?tagalog na tagalog ako ngayon?napag isip isip ko kasi na PILIPINO PALA AKO!!asus!!bigla daw ba ko naging mapagmahal sa bayan? at sa sariling wika? )
Hay,buhay buhay talaga minsan parang bola bukod sa bilog kung saan saan tumatalbog at napupunta..buti na lang ANDIYAN SI GOD ...pag hinayaan mo sia...sia ang magdidribol .kung saan ka man mapunta ..ASAHAN MO NA PUPULUTIN AT PUPULUTIN KA NIYA at IBABALIK SA COURT kung saan ka nababagay..Parang buhay natin..minsan matigas ang ulo natin...akala natin hawak natin ang mga susunod na pangyayari..masyado tayo nadadala sa mga magagandang tagpo ..nakakalimutan natin na sa likod ng magagandang tagpo na yun ay isang paghahanda sa mas mahirap na PAGSUSULIT..(naks!!!magaling pala ko sa tagalog vocabulary heheheh :) )
Hindi nga..sa mga nangyayari sa akin sa paglakad ko sa PANGINOON ..madami akong bagay na nagagawa na parang hindi ako..at madami akong HINDI NA GINAGAWA dahil alam ko na hindi makapagbibigay ng PAPURI sa kanya...
Gaya na lang ng pagbabasa at pag iyak ng pag iyak..dati naman oo iyakin ako pero parang nung lumalalim ang RELASYON ko kay GOD parang napapasobra naman yata ang pagka iyakin ko...Halos araw araw yata na nag dedebosyon ako umiiyak ako eh..mula sa praise and worship hanggang sa pagbabasa ng bible..Palagi ko kasi naiisip na NAPAKA MAPAGPATAWAD NI GOD at NAPAKA MAKASALANAN ko!!!...Palagi nakalagay sa bible ..forgive..forgive..love your enemy,who are u to judge others?....encourage one another..love one another..help each other.... be patient with one another..Ang dali sundin kapag walang emosyon....pero pag may emosyon na!!sabayan mo pa ng pride,dis appointments...HALA!!!WALA NA 'NAG STUMBLE ' ka na talaga...Ang tao nga naman masayado mareklamo,masyado mapagmataas,masyado madaldal..masyado mapagbilang ng kasalanan ng iba..
Naisip ko lang?eh kung si GOD kaya mag GIVE UP?...WALA NA!!siguro LAHAT TAYO asa impyerno...Buti na lng GRACIOUS si GOD...by GRACE ,WE ARE SAVED....
Teka?bukod sa pag iyak ..ano pa ba ang nabago sa akin?...Alam ko na naging wide reader ako..dati hindi ako masyado palabasa..mahilig ako manood... thru watching madali ako matuto at thru listening...noong naging KRISTYANO AKO hala plagi ako nagkukulong sa clinic ko para magbasa ng bible..devotional books etcc...kahit ano na makakatulong sa PAGLAGO KO SA PAGLAKAD KO SA PANGINOON..dumating pa nga minsan sa point na may pasyente ako ayoko gawin kasi gusto ko lang magbasa..Hanggang sa unti unti naging part na siya ng buhay ko...
At dahil din sa pagbabasa ko...nainspire ako sumulat ng mga blogs at poems for GOD...nakilala ko sia ng PERSONAL...sabi nga nila...UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL WITH GOD!!...At sa mga panahon na malungkot ako gaya nung mga nakaraang araw..pagbabasa ng WORD OF GOD ang nag comfort sa akin..Kaya ..Eto balik sa normal ulit ako...Buti na lng may bible kung wala siguro madami ang mag mamarunong,ganito..ganyan..mahirap sumunod..pero pag KRISTYANO KA AT ALAM MO NA GALING KAY GOD ang bible..SUSUNOD at SUSUNOD ka.. As if may mas better choice ka pa bukod kay GOD?..eh kaso wala naman kasi ..GOD IS ALL POWERFUL... ALL KNOWING...SOVEREIGN...THE ALPLHA AND THE OMEGA..Minsan nga lang matigas ulo natin ..Gusto pairalin ang sarili kaya ayun pag ubos na lakas natin makipag wrestle kay GOD susuko din tayo...kaya ang "motto '" ko for today!!!
TAMA NA!!SOBRA NA!!..Masyado n ako madami nailuha ..Oras naman para maging masaya hindi ba? :)

2005-08-25T07:26:00.000+08:00

My Child
...You may not know me, but I know everything about you...(Psalm 139:1I)
I know when you sit down and when you rise up ...(Psalm 139:2I)
I am familiar with all your ways ...(Psalm 139:3)
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered...(Matthew 10:30)
For you were made in my image ...(Genesis 1:27)
In me you live and move and have your being ,For you are my offspring ...(Acts 17:28)
I knew you even before you were conceived ...(Jeremiah 1:4-5)
I chose you when I planned creation ...(Ephesians 1:11-12)
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book...(Psalm 139:15-16)
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live ...(Acts 17:26 )
You are fearfully and wonderfully made ...(Psalm 139:14 )
I knit you together in your mother's womb ...(Psalm 139:13 )
And brought you forth on the day you were born ...(Psalm 71:6)
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me ...(John 8:41-44)
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete _expression of love...(1 John 4:16 )
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you ...(1 John 3:1)
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father ...(1 John 3:)
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could ...(Matthew 7:11)
For I am the perfect father ...(Matthew 5:48)
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand...(James 1:17)
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs ...(Matthew 6:31-33)
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope ...(Jeremiah 29:11)
Because I love you with an everlasting love ...(Jeremiah 31:3)
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore ...(Psalms 139:17-18)
And I rejoice over you with singing ...(Zephaniah 3:17)
I will never stop doing good to you ...(Jeremiah 32:40 )
For you are my treasured possession ...(Exodus 19:5)
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul ...(Jeremiah 32:41)
And I want to show you great and marvelous things ...(Jeremiah 33:3)
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me ...(Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart ...(Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires ...(Philippians 2:13 )
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine ...(Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager ...(2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles ...(2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you ...(Psalm 34:18)
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart ...(Isaiah 40:11)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes ...(Revelation 21:3-4)
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth ...(Revelation 21:3-4)
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus ...(John 17:23)
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed ...(John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being ...(Hebrews 1:3)
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you...(Romans 8:31)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins ...(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled ...(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
His death was the ultimate _expression of my love for you...(1 John 4:10)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love ...(Romans 8:31-32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me ...(1 John 2:23).
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again ...(Romans 8:38-39)
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen ...(Luke 15:7)
I have always been Father, and will always be Father ...(Ephesians 3:14-15)
My question is...Will you be my child? ...(John 1:12-13)
I am waiting for you ...(Luke 15:11-32)
Love, Your Dad. Almighty God
hay,..God our Perfect Father really knows us...These verses were forwarded to me from my sister in CHRIST..As soon as I woke up ,I asked GOD to continue to comfort me... To REVEAL my WORTH ..To REVIVE MY SELF ESTEEM..This email really made my DAY indeed more EXCITING to begin with...KNOWING THAT MY DAD KNOWS & LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM....Wow!!!What an ENCOURAGEMENT for someone as weak as I AM...Ang GALING TALAGA NI GOD...just last nayt he made me smile now HE ALLOWED ME TO HAVE A DEEP BREATH WHILE SMILING...as if INSTANTLY MY FEARS WERE GONE...Si GOD talaga is SELDOM early but NEVER too late..He allowed us to undergo pain to better IMPROVE US ..TO TEST OUR OBEDIENCE OVER CIRCUMSTANCES...Just few days ago feeling ko bumagsak ako...feeling ko i am a looser...i felt i was in the dark..but even though i was in the dark im still trying to "look" for the righteous right hand of my shepherd..he held me on his hand..i know he is there but the light is so small for me to see coz i am so focused with my emotions...but with humility ..I acknowledge my weakness..(grace lang ni GOD na mag humble ako).. and trying to keep myself in "tune" with him...TRUE ENOUGH he SHOWED ME THE WAY...the small light i see yesterday is just SUFFICIENT ENOUGH for me to make ANOTHER STEP...ANd now my emotions are subsiding little by little...I CAN NOW SEE CLEARLY..I CAN NOW WALK AGAIN...carrying my own cross... kahit may sugat sige lang lakad pa din kasi nadidinig ko ang boses ni GOD.."You can do it child!!!..I am here!!..never will i leave you nor forsake you.. I am holding you!! Don't you TRUST ME?.." These voices are always IN MY HEART & MIND...akala ko ba you want me to REVEAL your weaknesses?..That's your weakness..Come on!!!I WILL STRENGTHEN YOU!!!".. Masakit?okey lang yan...TRUST ME ..IT WILL COME TO PASSED!!!.....I AM A SOVEREIGN GOD..I AM IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING!!!...
i stumbled but my GOD lifted me up...Now, I have to be "more careful" in my sharings....now i really have to slow in speak...Guard my LIPS OH GOD....

2005-08-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

SALVATION IS FREE

BUT DISCIPLESHIP WILL COST YOU EVERYTHING

What does it mean to follow CHRIST? (LUKE 14:25-33)

1.CHRIST must be above our relatives (father,mother,wife,children,brothers or sisters)

2.CHRIST must be above our selves( yes more than our own life!!!)

3.CHRIST must be above everything(plans,dreams etc...)

IN SHORT:CHRIST MUST BE NUMBER ONE IN OUR LIVES!!!.

Praise GOD..I was able to attend my baptism class this evening..Grace nia lang po yun...and the message was about being a disciple of JESUS...i can never be his disciple wd out carrying my own cross..above all...even my own life (including my emotions now!!) , dreams,relatives...He should be my number one...

Also ,am thankful that a sister in CHRIST lend me her book "bondage breaker"..It was an answered prayer..Galing ni GOD ,wala kong sinasabi sa friend ko... basta pagpunta nia sa clinic ko kanina naisip nia daw na dalhin yung book at ipahiram sa kin!!.. ewan nia daw ba basta bigla nia daw naalala kung kamusta na ako..coz i haven't talk to her for quite sometime..hay!!!God orchestrated everything!!...Just a couple of days ago lang..im asking friends regarding that book or verse in the bible about "bondage or soul ties from the past"....then..here it comes..si GOD pa nag deliver ng book sa kin...am excited to read it and learn how to fight the satan attack about my past to better improve my walk with GOD...By God's grace,I really have to KNOW MY WEAKNESSES and LEARN FROM THEM...There is no instant spiritual maturity...Every one must undergo the pruning..Removing a part that is not bearing any fruit or removing all of it if necessary...The process is painful..but GOD PROMISES US that if we ABIDE IN HIM...We will bear fruit....si GOD talaga kapag "anak" ka nia gusto nia maayos at matatag ka sa lahat ng ASPECT ng buhay mo..Ipapakita nia weaknesses mo at pag hindi mo iniluhod at hiningi sa kanya na baguhin ka ..paulit ulit ka lang sa parehong problema..mas matagal ka matuto..mas madami ang consequences..mas matagal makakarating sa promised land..kaya pinaka wise talaga sumunod na lang kung ayaw mo mas masaktan..(hmmmppp...ang dali isulat pero hirap gawin :(

Just like my struggles now..I'm emotionally not okay but by his grace he allowed me to go to baptism class..I obeyed and am glad i did..coz my SPIRITS WAS LIFTED AGAIN...ALAS!!After 3 days of sadness,I can now smile... ...at grateful na ko kay GOD doon for now...mababaw lang naman ako na tao eh..kahit yata "candy" ibigay mo sa akin maaapreciate ko.. Mas tumitingin kasi ako palagi sa giver kesa sa gift..kaya the fact na napangiti ako ni GOD ngayon masaya na ko kasi alam ko "grace" nia lang yun ...one smile is enough for me to make another step again..:)

2005-08-21T07:23:00.000+08:00

EMOTIONAL WARFARE

To grieve ,and yet no comforter;
to be wounded and yet no healer;
to be weary and yet know no resting place
this is the world's hard lot
( Horatius Bonar)

NEVER harbor anger toward those that brought you DEATH
For they GAVE YOU chance to LIVE AGAIN
(Lindsay Ballard)

To everyone who had shared with my mournings in times of grief,my warmest thanks...to all who had "caused" me those pains..thanks as well...because YOU gave me a Chance to LIVE again..And most of all to GOD ALMIGHTY,my savior,my redeemer,my comforter,my bestfriend,my HOPE &my FUTURE..Thank You for loving me eventhough i am a sinner..You are so gracious and merciful,EVERYONE might GIVE UP on me but not YOU...My REASON,my SEASON,my LIFETIME and my ETERNITY....

2005-08-20T08:56:00.000+08:00

TRIALS AND TEMPTATIONS
(JAMES 1:2-8)
"2 Consider it pure JOY,my brothers,whenever you FACE TRIALS of many kinds,3 because YOU KNOW that the TESTING of your FAITH develops PERSEVERANCE.4 Perseveranse MUST FINISH it's work so that ,you may be MATURE and COMPLETE,NOT LACKING ANYTHING..5 If any of you lacks WISDOM ,he SHOULD ASK GOD,who GIVES GENEROUSLY to ALL with out finding fault,and it WILL BE GIVEN to him.6 But when he asks,he MUST BELIEVE and NOT DOUBT ,because HE WHO DOUBTS is like a wave of the sea,blown and tossed by the wind.7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the LORD ;8 He is a DOUBLE-MINDED MAN,UNSTABLE in all HE DOES".

(Let us all reflect on these verses...Do we find ourselves as double-minded?Do we always make "tampo" to God whenever trials set in?Do we always focus on our problems rather than focusing on GOD?...Me?....ABSOLUTELY YES...Several times..I really don't like trials...but like what JAMES (JESUS' bROTHER not the apostle) is telling us,We should consider it JOY ,because the testing of our faith develops perseverance...
So,every time "doubts" start to ruin us...Let us all REST IN GOD's WORDS..BELIEVE ,no matter how painful or hard the circumstances were...Let us "ADJUST OUSELVES" what the bible is saying....Not "ADJUSTING THE BIBLE TO US"....Bec.the bible is God-breathed,inerrant,infallable....IT IS THE WORD OF GOD.....our pattern or standard for living that can be use for correcting "wrongs in our lives"..that can be use for teaching,proofs etc.....
think about these? and let us all start obeying NOW...:)

2005-08-18T13:56:00.000+08:00

HEART TO HEART CONVERSATIONS ON LOVE
Love?....hmmmnnnnnnnnnn...Let me think?..Is there anyone in this world who doesn't want to "love" and be "loved" in return?....hay... Who ever you are..I feel so sad for you...Didn't you know that GOD LOVES YOU?...Yes!!...You heard it right!!or i must say ,you read it right!!! :).God loves us first..In fact as a greatest expression of his love..He died for us..he died for our sins....(JOHN3:16) .This i must say is the GREATEST LOVE STORY OF ALL TIMES..So romantic..that not even Romeo & Juliet ,or Titanic movie could ever equate or surpass it's existence or block buster record...It was recorded not just in the world but beyond that....It was recorded in the MOST ROMANTIC LOVE LETTER OF ALL TIMES...THE BIBLE.. God loves us even before we are not yet been born....from ETERNITY PAST...

For some,having a husband could be their ultimate dream..or perhaps their ultimate reason for living...There's nothing wrong with that..Even,I myself,must confess that i really dreamt of having a Godly husband sometime in the future(God willing :) )....But what is wrong is the idea of "over doing it"...the idea of not making yourself happy as a single just because You are not yet married?...Marriage is a gift from GOD ..If it is a gift?..Can you "force" somebody to give it to you?...Can you possibly get it yourself with out the permission of the GIVER?...If you get it with out God's permission,I'm telling YOU ,Your marriage will gonna be a "BIG MESS!!"...It's like putting yourself into your own FURNACE!!...Because a gift is a gift..It can't be bought nor stolen..It is freely given regardless of whether we deserve it or not..that's what we call GRACE..unmerited favor from our GOD...Yes,It's TRUE that ,There's no such a thing as a PERFECT MARRIAGE ..Needless to say,that there is a perfect person...Because ,if we think that way..definitely,marriage is really IMPOSSIBLE!!..But That doesn't give us a reason to just GRAB WHO EVER COMES FIRST...As if ..It's gonna be the "last trip"..Remember ladies,(same thing goes with men)...GOD is the only one that can COMPLETE THE VOID IN OUR HEARTS...NOTHING MORE...NOTHING LESS...

If you think ,Marriage could make you complete..then..You are ABSOLUTELY WRONG...coz We are DESTINED FOR SOMETHING FAR MORE BETTER THAN THAT...Remember,Our love for a partner could only LAST FOR A LIFETIME...Once we died,Couples on earth will never be couples in heaven...but rather ALL OF US WILL BECOME "ANGELS.."..It is now that i further undestood that a husband could not possibly tell his wife that i ETERNALLY LOVE you..coz ETERNAL LOVE belongs only to GOD....Now,I better realized the vows they promise to each other...TILL DEATH DO US PART....Because MARRIAGE could only last a lifetime..MARK 12:25 says: "When the dead rise they will neither marry nor be given in marriage;they will be like angels in the heaven" .

As i end this...To all the singles out there!!!STAY BEAUTIFUL,HAPPY and CONTENT.. I know it is easier said than done..I know that sometimes the "desire" is so high..Nothing wrong with that ..SURRENDER IT TO GOD..and WAIT...While WAITING..Let us all rest in GOD's LOVE for us..What ever we do..do it well,faithfully,trusthworthily and cheerfully... Remember God's promises to us..(JEREMIAH 29:11).Be READY to become SINGLE FOR LIFE (i know it's hard!! ) but at the same time be excited to WELCOME MARRIAGE...In GOD's PERFECT TIME ...:)

2005-08-17T12:40:00.000+08:00

MY PERFECT MAN

My life could have been a total misery
Because of a word who's name is SIN
So many times my heart was thrown
Since then i forgot just what to do

Then one day ,JESUS came through
He started to knock and came through
He promise to love me and save me too
I ACCEPTED him and TRUSTED him too

Spirits went up,heartbeats regain
Instantly forgotten the heart that has been strained
Suddenly then my sorrows just flew
Forget the past that has gone through

Now ,We're TOGETHER
FOR EVER and EVER
We have realized to PART will be NEVER
I have proven that ,HE IS MY PERFECT MAN
ANd now ,I KNOW ..
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH :)

2005-08-17T12:12:00.000+08:00

Hi ate Win,

Thanks for taking some time to visit my blog..not only that you visited it,You even posted a poem which i really really appreciate!!!:)

It is indeed my priviledge to share my life with You..Thank you for being my MOSES or my PAUL...I pray that ,By God's grace ,I will become like Joshua or Timothy so that a Godly leadership will continue for God's GREATER GLORY..:

Over and Over again,I always Thank GOD ALMIGHTY for blessing me with someone like you..who guided me from the past until this time..You have encouraged me so much that my testimony will never be complete with out YOU..I am TRULY HAPPY to know that,in my own little way ,I am encouraging you as well.. :)

You are and so with the rest of our d12 family will always be SO SPECIAL IN MY HEART...May we continue to walk with one another as we walk with the LORD...I LOVE YOU ALL...:)

IN CHRIST,
Donna :)

2005-08-17T11:39:00.000+08:00

Hi Donna Dear,

Am happy you have this blogspot to put all your many thoughts and insights about God. May you continue to seek Him and am sure you'll never be disappointed.

I praise God for being a part of your walk with the Lord and i want you to know that you have encouraged me so much in the past and you still are dear...

I want to share this poem (exactly what i want to tell you, Tin and the rest of the ladies in r d12).I hope i can post this in tin's blog too.

God bless you always!
Te wins

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts & fears
But I can listen to you & together we will search for answers...

I can't change your past with all its' heartaches & pains
or the future of its' untold stories
But I can be there now when you need me to care...

I can't keep your feet from stumbling
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it & not fall...

Your joys, your triumphs & happiness are not mine
Yet I can share in your laughter...

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge
I can only support you & encourage you & help you when you ask...

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,from your values,from me
I can only pray for you, talk to you & wait for you...

I can't give you boundaries,which I have determined for you
But I can give you the room to change,room to grow, room to be yourself...

I can't keep your heart from breaking or hurting
But I can cry with you & help you pick up the pieces & put them back in place...

I can't tell you who you are
I can only LOVE you & be your friend...

(by Caramel Kitty)

in Christ,
te Wins

2005-08-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

MY ROLLER-COASTER EMOTIONS
Is there something wrong with me?at one point,I'm so sad...soon after,i'll be fine...then sad again..then laugh...hmmmmm?Is it something that i should worry about?Let me think?hmmmmm... Hala!!!Baka kailangan ko na magpa psyche!!!hahhah...jaz kidding!!:)No wonder i can always relate to David..The book of Psalms is sooooooooo emotional.....very "human" in nature...very much like us...not only the emotions but also the little mistakes of David which eventually became his big mistake...imagine?from a simple "desire" for a girl led him to a major sin of adultery?..just like me?..for some, my concerns maybe too small for them...but they don't realized that big problems came from small ones right?..What will i do with my small problems?jaz keep them with in me as if God doesn't know them?...or pretend as if i'm ok even if i'm not?... and worst pretend as if GOD can't see my heart?..look?...i don't want to pretend coz for me pretentions are big lies and hypocracy!!!I want to be HONEST with GOD..If im in pain i tell him,if im in doubt and fear i ask for his wisdom and strength..etc...
We all are God's workmanship...He is our potter and we are his master pieces...somewhere..somehow ,all of us will "wander" in our hearts and thoughts...Our "innate' imperfections will always REMIND US of our COMPLETE DEPENDENCE ON GOD...that indeed APART from his grace and mercy ..we really can do nothing and we are nothing...I believe that He is breaking our hearts and allowing us to have a "roller-coaster" emotions so that we will always seek him and his words...Because our too much knowledge over a lot of things will give us our tendencies to become self-sufficient and complacent...Pstr Peter is right,God allows adversaries in our lives so that just like a kite we can all FLY SO HIGH UNTIL WE REACH THE SKY....He further said that on the other hand,we shouldn't pray for trials...for it will surely come..:)
In conclusion,Inspite and despite of David's "roller coaster"emotions ..God calls him as the "Man after His Own heart"....You see?...We are all humans..and more than that ,WE are children of GOD...We may be having a roller-coster emotions now...but there is one thing i am sure...GOD is true yesterday,today ..and tomorrow...If he had done that to David.....He will also bring out the "David's" in us..... :)

2005-08-15T12:55:00.000+08:00

JEREMIAH'S PRAYER
(1o:23-24)

"I know,O LORD,that a man's life is not his own;

Correct me,LORD,but only with JUSTICE-not in

ANGER,lest You reduce me to NOTHING "

i feel so down right now..kneeled down and ask for God's guidance and forgiveness..i know that i made a wrong decision that led me where i am right now..i didn't ask God's approval for such a decision..now,i am experiencing the consequences..as i open my bible after i prayed,these verses spoke to me..I can see myself in Jeremiah's prayer right this very moment...God reminded me again that ,"Donna,u forgot yesterday, that your LIFE IS NOT YOUR OWN...In EVERYTHING YOU ASK ME FIRST so that You will not be MISLED...."..Hay,How sorry i was and still am rayt now :( hay...so much to learn each day of my life.... But GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME...though i went before him,He withdrew me rayt away..and bring me to where he is... WHICH IS inside mY.... HEART...HE IS REALLY SO GRACIOUS AND MERCIFUL to his CHILDREN....He DISCIPLINES me because HE LOVES ME....and with that after i cried...i can now...smile :)....though my problem is not yet resolved ,the thought that he spoke to me rayt now is more than enough..i was a baby who fell..and my father lifted me up... :)

2005-08-14T07:48:00.000+08:00

EXPRESSING MY OWN IDENTITY

Does being a christian mean becoming boring?Does it mean that i can no longer be fashionable?..that i can no longer wear sleeveless ,accessories and be vain?

Certainly,NOT!!!..God created us to be unique with one another..I remember Pstr Dennis Legaspi says that, ALL OF US ARE VAIN IN VARYING DEGREES..Some are vain in books,some in watches,shoes,some in hi-tech gadgets etc....But me?I must confess that ,I'm vain in dressing up..I can't see anything wrong with that..Does it mean that because i love to wear sleeveless makes me "less" as a christian?..Ofcourse not!!!Because God knows that my motive is not to attract men but rather to feel good and comfortable about myself..I love to dress up and make myself beautiful because i believe that my body is my accountability with God.What important is not just the outward but rather the inward beauty..Because the bible warns us that "..where your treasure is..there your heart as well.." So,just express your own identity..dress up girl!!!Nothing wrong with that!!but dress up appropriately!!!Don't wear too sexy outfit esp.during worship services..watch out of our jeans when we sit..Let's "help" our brothers in their struggles ok?hehe...there's a proper time and a proper place for those sexy outfits once we get married...But no matter how much you try not be attractive and yet you are still an eye catcher?..Whew!!!Oh girl!!!U're so blessed indeed!!! heehehe..Use that to attract men...for the LORD not for YOU.I'm sure God will be pleased..:)

So,in my point of view?expressing one's self is a gift from God...Don't be shy..Come on!! Let's show the world that CHRISTIANS ARE NOT BORING!!..We know how to enjoy life..We also LOVE pleasure,We love dressing up,going to the beaches,concerts,movies etc..We enjoy them because they are God's Blessings to us...but ,Let us all be reminded to ALWAYS SEEK THE GIVER THAN THE GIFTS..As we invest our time ,money and effort making our outward appearance beautiful.Don't you THINK it is of much IMPORTANCE to make our INNER SELF MORE BEAUTIFUL?..Examine yourself..How much of my time do i spent for GOD?,reading his words? and listening to him?Remember the TRUE PURPOSE OF OUR EXISTENCE..Worship..Fellowship..evangelism..ministry...Ask yourself..Evaluate your lifestyle..and START RE ALLIGNING THEM NOW!!!....

2005-08-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

CNN PRESENTS..CANCER PATIENTS

I just can't help it but to cry...just done watching cancer patients with their families,doctors and hospital staff..Hearing their testimonies of hope,love and courage has blessed me so much..I am tremendously overwhelmed on how the said disease has changed their views in life..Each of them has his/her own story to tell..A story of hope every single day..A story of FAITH IN GOD..

As i was watching,several things entered my mind..First,GOD IS SOVEREIGN..He is in control of everything..He definitely sees everything.He knows the diagnosis,the prognosis and the treatment modalities..God has the ultimate "control" and power to whether heal them or not..But the issue is not whether to be healed ot not to be healed..but rather to be "saved by grace" or not to be saved..The choice was on their hands..because GOD is always there knocking at the door of their hearts.If anyone opens the door..He will come in.And dine with them..and they with him.The Second thing that entered my mind was to place myself in their shoes.What if it happens to me?Or anyone close to my family?..Honestly,FEAR starts to cover my body..I found myself crying..Tears start to fall...And said to GOD .."Wag po..baka hindi ko kaya.."...The last thing that entered my mind and found myself contemplating was the last question the interviewer asked to the doctors and patients.The question was: If you were about to do a movie about cancer patients..How would you like to end this?..what would be the last shot?...whew!!!!what a beautiful question...So,here's their answers..Some say,"The last shot would be..there is a flag raising up..declaring Victory over cancer..,Others say,"My last shot would be,a patient walking peacefully at the beach with sunrise and blue water.etc....

Then the segment ended ......I immediately off my tv and went down here to do my blog...I would like to pause for a while and think ,If i were to ask ,...What will be my last shot?....then my answer will be....."A shot where a cancer patient is lying in his bed dying in his sleep with a big smile on his face because on the other side is our ONE BIG GOD,smiling back with open arms and say,.."Welcome my child...You are NOW in your REAL HOME..where pain is no more..:) And so they hugged with angels singing and rejoicing with their trumpets... :) A place called HEAVEN..

2005-08-13T15:44:00.000+08:00

I PROMISE
(by:Jaci Velasquez)

Lord, You know my heart
And all of my desires
And the secret things,I'll never tell
Lord,You know them well

Though ,I may be young
I see and understand
That at times like sheep we go astray
And things get out of hand

CHORUS
So I promise to be true to you
To live my life in purity
As unto You
Waiting for the day
When I hear You say
Here is the one I have created
Just for you

Until then,O Lord
I will be content
Knowing that TRUE LOVE
Will come SOMEDAY
It will only come from you

Until then ,O Lord
I will be content
Knowing that true love
Will come someday
It will only come from you

Cause I have seen the suffering
That loneliness can cause
When we choose to give our love away
With out a righteous cause
(Repeat Chorus)

(Truly....The song says it all...that's why it is a fave song of most of the christian girls out there..including me...hay...kilig :) ..i'm excited...i claim God's promises to me.. :) )

2005-08-13T13:35:00.000+08:00

OFFERING MY "ISAAC" TO GOD
This could be one of the hardest decisions ,I could ever make in my life..Giving up someone so dear to me.A relationship that i "nurtured" for quite a time..A relationship that i thought could be eventually my ticket towards a happy home in the future..I always dreamt of a Godly husband..a Godly children... and a Godly home...All my life...Ive been praying that God would give me the desire of my heart.A husband whom I'll give my total committment with and children whom i'l raise as Godly as they can ever be..I forsee myself as a very faithful wife,caring and an encourager..I want to become a woman behind a successful man.I see myself a mom looking after at my kids playing around during sunday schools,teaching them the word of GOD,attending to their needs,teaching them of their homeworks ,attending PTA meetings in school,cooking and baking for them..that was my ULTIMATE DREAM..To become the best mom and the best wife ,I could possibly be..That's why ,I'm very careful to choosing my man and getting into a relationship,because for me,It is a COMMITTMENT...I don't get into a relationship just for the sake of getting some pleasure..I get into a relationship to eventually "settle down" with him..And so if ever i am into it,I AM REALLY SERIOUS AND COMMITTED..
Finally,I found a GODLY MAN,I am so thankful to GOD that I have somebody whom i can read the bible with,pray with and share my life with..God used him as an instrument for me to get started with my faith..He brought me to CCF which eventually became my spiritual home..I always see him as God's gift to me..We always say that if God is with us .No one will be against us...But what if,God himself,would tell me that ..It's TIME TO GIVE UP?...That.. It's time to move on to a higher level of faith?..and It's time for me to undergo SANCTIFICATION?...Alone,Individually...Apart from my man...That's when, GOD ASKED ME TO GIVE MY ISAAC TO HIM..I was so confused at that time..though my relationship with my man is not perfect ,I know ,we could still work it out..If and only if ,I wont give up..But ,God is speaking..GIVE UP..GIVE UP..
I was hard headed..So i continue with the relationship until it came to a point that problems start to arise..until i was able to see the flaws in our relationship and in him...And so....Finally,God speak to me at the single's retreat.."I am the Vine ,You are the branches;He that ABIDE in me and I in HIM,the same bringeth forth much fruit;for WITH OUT ME..YOU CAN DO NOTHING..v8.."Herein is my Father glorified,that YOU BEAR FRUIT,SO YOU SHALL BE MY DISCIPLES.."(JOHN 15:5,8)..
After hearing that ,I CRIED SO HARD..how selfish i was for not bearing any fruit for GOD..For not OBEYING HIM...This is a simple sacrifice which I can not do for GOD?..He died for me..To save me..I am saved to serve..
and so ,from there ,I made a DECISION TO OBEY AND SEEK HIM...As soon as i went back to manila,i broke up with him..I told him that God wants the two of us to grow with HIM first..and God willing ..who knows ..we mayt still be in the end...He got shocked..He hated me for such a decision..Giving him up for no reason at all?..I must really be crazy....so,the decision was made..I was in "DEEP PAIN"...So deep that i hardly sleep..i cried and cried..How come ,I'm not at peace with my decision if it's from GOD?...So after a month,We got back again..I thought that was God's leading to me...This time..problems became harder to handle between the two of us..while I am at the height of my "fire"for the LORD..Suddenly,He was so bothered with a lot of things... We just don't meet in our level of maturities.I found myself nagging him to go to his d group,to pray etc...WHEW!!!!THIS IS THE CONSEQUENCE OF MY DISOBEDIENCE...and this time the pain is more unbearable..So ...Finally..It has to end...Soon after that i preoccuppied myself with SEEKING AND SEEKING GOD...I claim God's promises to me...and ask for forgiveness..If only i OBEYED 100% from the start..maybe i will be shield from those pains...But GOD ALLOWED THOSE PAINS for me to LEARN what GIVING UP IS ALL ABOUT...Giving up COMPLETELY...MOVING ON with NO IF's and BUT's....Now i know my lesson..I've learned it the hard way.. this time...Finally i said with all of my heart,:LORD ..IM GIVING YOU MY "ISAAC"...Now ,il give you my 100% OBEDIENCE....and the rest is history...I am now healed..i have moved on...and joyful..Indeed,Everything worked together for good for those who love him....With GOD...i found my ULTIMATE DREAM....THE GODLY MAN OF MY LIFE...MY GODLY HOME...To GOD be all the GLORY FOR EVER...

2005-08-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

2005-08-13T10:32:00.000+08:00

BLESSINGS OVER THE RAIN
FRIDAY ...This day is so special to me...I really make sure that I make myself free for my d12 family...Yes...my spiritual family whom GOD gave me..They have seen me grow from a child who can't even speak..then try crawling..eventually can stand up...and now walking and talking for the LORD..I claim NO GLORY for these..Everything is by his grace and grace alone...I remember the first time i came in there...I am totally ignorant of God's words..I am even afraid to pray aloud coz in my mind i thought..i don't know how..then eventually i prayed that God would help me and teach me to pray...and the secret is the holy spirit in me.

Rains just keep on pouring outside..Though I am excited to meet my d12 family..I am also a bit hesitant to go out because of the rain..No!!Don't get me wrong!!!I don't fear rain..it was just water,i will just get wet!!..The things that bother me are the effects of that rain..like traffic...and difficulty in taking a ride..I was contemplating that i mayt get "trapped" or worst may not be able to get a ride..As i was contemplating my former bf texted me.."Hey,it's rainy outside..wanna need a ride?".....Heheheh..Is that an answered prayer?hehheh..Buti na lng ,I've learned a lot na from GOD heheh...I am now able to handle those invitations from him..I wanted to protect him kasi from me so that He'll continue to move on...and eventually by God's grace...We became friends..Afterall,We are siblings in the eyes of GOD..And so i declined the invitation..

To make a long story short..I obeyed GOD..I reminded myself of the verse,"Do not give up meeting one another"...I even told myself.."Kaw talaga DONNA para kang si Peter,He wanted to go with JESUS and walk at the sea,but when when the wind becomes boisterous,he panic...ako nman gusto ko magd12 pero dhil umulan nag alala ko...siguro if JESUS would be beside me,He would tell me the same thing he told to Peter..."You of little faith!!!"hehheh At simpre pa natauhan na po ako heheh..And so before i left ,i prayed that GOD will stop the rain or if not he will protect me...and GOD IS SO GOOD...He answered my prayer..as soon as i get off sa ortigas station..the rain stops ...GOD IS REALLY GOOD!!..Im sure sobrang dami namin na nagpapray that time..Prayers really work..:)

To my surprise,I came at CCF really early..It's 6:20 to my clock..As expected.No one is there yet..Only me..and so i just decided to go to mcdo and buy some food to eat..By 7:25 tin came..i was happy..akala ko kasi mag isa lng ako mag dd12..e d sana sa bhay na lng ako nag devotions heheh..so,by 8pm ,four of us were there already..we texted the others and said they can't come so we get started..Sugar led the devotions..And the message was so timely..it's about DIS APPOINMENTS...hehehe ..GOD IS SPEAKING TO ME...kaw donna ha..umulan lng ng nadis appoint ka na pumunta...

The message has 3 POINTS:
1.)Disappointments can open our ears to HEAR FROM GOD
2.)Disappointments can open our eyes to SEE GOD's GOODNESS
3.)And lastly,Disappointments can open our HANDS TO DO WHAT EVER ELSE WE CAN FOR GOD....
We were all so enlightened..we even forget that it's already late and it is so gloomy outside..we had a wonderful time sharing our lives and glorifying GOD..By his grace ...All of us were able to be home safe and sound..With out the hassles of traffic and heavy rains..
As i close my eyes before i sleep..i thank GOD ALMIGHTY...For indeed...It is such a BLESSING OVER THE RAINS...:)

2005-08-12T15:33:00.000+08:00

LEADERSHIP...AN OPTION?...OR A COMMAND?

DEUTORONOMY 31:1-30

BACKGROUND:Realizing that MOSES is already old and about to die.He commisions JOSHUA to record the laws in a permanent form and teaches a special song for the ISRAELITES...Thus MOSES prepared the people for his departure..similarly,We should not allow others to become dependent upon us for spiritual growth..or vice versa..but rather to be DEPENDENT ON GOD

This is my 3rd opportunity to lead the devotions in our d12..looking back,my first one was all about friendship..when GOD says that there is no greater love than to lay down one's life for a friend..my 2nd devotion is about,"ABIDING IN GOD's WORD in the book " Becoming a woman after God's own heart"..The first two devotions,i was really so nervous..I can't even reconsruct my thoughts..though i have my own copy my shyness is killing me..but by the grace of GOD ...The 3rd time,I really prayed for this..that GOD will used me mightily to "speak"to his people through me and in me...and so,instead of using any devotional books..GOD impressed me to share my own devotions in one of my "quiet time wd GOD"....At siempre gaya gaya ako...ginaya ko ang mga pastors sa CCF...gumawa ako ng answer sheets para they can get thru my discussion hehehehe...and take note...gumawa pa ko ng messages based on my own interpretations heheheheh...so,here's my devotions...

MESSAGES: THE 3 B's

1. BE ready always

We have to be always ready to be called by GOD to lead anytime..Maybe sooner or later...we can not tell,ONLY GOD CAN...So,it is better to be always ready than to be sorry..On our own,it seems that getting ready is so hard..isipin pa nga lang natin na may ipapagawa sa atin si GOD parang hindi na natin kaya di ba?but no matter how we said we are not ready....kapag oras na natin mag lead GOD WILL MAKE US READY...jaz like JOSHUa..God commanded him to to go to the promise land..(deutoronomy 31:23)The LORD gave this command to JOSHUA son of Nun,"Be STRONG and COURAGEOUS,for you will bring the ISRAELITES to the promise land and I myself will be with you...

2.BELIEVE IN GOD

Believing is something..OBEYING is another thing..It is not enough that we know that God will never leave us nor forsake us,WE MUST BELIEVE IN HIM..Joshua didn't just make himself ready....He BELIEVED in GOD...He believes on the promises of GOD..(deutoronomy 31:6) "Be strong and courageous,Do not be afraid or terrified because of them,I am the LORD your GOD goes with you;he will never leave you nor forsake you..

3.BE obedient

After believing,we must obey...God is more pleased with an obedient heart than our offerings ...Joshua didn't just believe ,he obeyed all that GOD has commanded him as a result they were able to conquer 31 kings in just 7 years...and were able to be at the promise land..

Now....tell me?..is leadersghip an option?..or a command?...Who is MOSES in your life?where you pattern your walk wd GOD?..Would u like to be like JOSHUA?..I would like to end this with the verse:

"Go therefore and make disciples of all nations,baptizing them in the name of the father and of the son and of the holy spirit...teaching them all i have commanded you..and lo,I WILL BE WITH YOU UNTIL THE END OF AGE"(mATTHEW 28:19-20)

TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY.....:)

2005-08-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

WELCOME TO MY HOME

To everyone :) ,

It is my priviledge to welcome you to my home..where my heart is...As you browse my blog it is my prayer that you will not just enter into my heart but enter at the heart of GOD...It is my desire to GLORIFY HIM into my life thats why i created my own blog...What you are about to see are my struggles,"wandering" thoughts,my testimonies of GOD's never ending grace in me..Some maybe senseless in your point of view....but they are indeed sensible and very important to me...From petty things up to the more complicated ones..from the innermost depth of my heart....It is my prayer that ,You'll be "blessed" by my life...by my thoughts...by my words.....and together...Let us all bring back to GOD ALL THE GLORY HE TRULY DESERVES.....

IN CHRIST,

Donna/Belle :)

2005-08-12T13:26:00.000+08:00

IM INLOVE

i can't get him off my mind
i can't get him off my life
the first time i knew him
he took my heart
by doing so...he took my life

the life that i have now is not my own
but rather it is for him to own
the moment that i accepted him
he dine with me and i with him

Love is the word that binds us both
Sin is the word that we hated both
together our love will see us through
Indeed now i know...ILOVE HIM SO...:)

(I LOVE YOU SO MUCH JESUS....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH :) )

hay..sarap talga ng feeling kapag inlove ka noh?the sky is so blue,the stars are shining so bright..everything you see is so beautiful in your eyes...and most of all i feel so inspired to write....hay..I am really INLOVE....with my GOD :) ..saka na lang sa earthly man...it will come in HIS TIME :)

2005-08-12T12:21:00.000+08:00

PURIFY MY HEART

Teach me your ways

O LORD my GOd

And I will walk in your truth

Give me a totally undivided heart

That I may fear your name

Chorus

Purify my heart

Cleanse ne LORD I pray

Remove from me all that is standing in the way(2x)

Of your LOVE

(This is one of my favorite songs for the LORD...Everytime i sing this...I really can't help it but to cry a lot....I am not perfect.I know that over and over again I will be needing his grace that I will continue to have a "PURIFIED HEART" :)

2005-08-12T11:55:00.000+08:00

MY JOURNEY AS A CHRISTIAN BEGINS....

Indeed,I am now "born- again" not physically but spiritually...It's about time to reallign my priorities...It's about time to be self-less...not to feel so much about myself...but so much about my GOD...Now that i already have the KNOWLEDGE...My life should be TRANSFORMED..The knowledge should not remain in my HEAD but rather should go DOWN TO MY HEART..For i know that GOD wants a heart that is COMPLETELY HIS...A heart that OBEYS...A heart that is PURE and RECEPTIVE..As i embrace HIM as the LOVER of my SOUL,I have to understand that ,IT is not only the PROVISION that i should embrace but also the CROSS that he painfully endured to SAVE ME...I should always be ready for pruning and sanctification..First,i am loved because of that love i am forgiven then i am chosen...I am a royal priesthood....i am SAVED TO SERVE HIM...not to be served...For JESUS HIMSELF came NOT TO BE SERVED but rather to SERVE...I am a "WORK IN PROGRESS"...Wonderfully and Perfectly made by my creator...I know ,I have a lot more to improve by his grace and grace alone..Everything is not on my own effort nor my own intelligence or talents....For apart from GOD ...I can DO NOTHING and I AM NOTHING...Apart from his light ,maybe i will still be in the DARK....From darkness...by his grace I am now in the LIGHT....and i know by his grace ...I WILL CONTINUE TO SHINE so bright that people around will be blessed by my presence because ..It is NO LONGER ME WHO REIGNS but JESUS CHRIST in me....What a beautiful start to begin my journey....With no less than my CREATOR and SAVIOR as my companion...I know ..It's not gonna be an easy journey...There will gonna be tough times ....but ONE THING I AM CERTAIN.....I BELIEVE THAT WITH JESUS ...I WILL SURELY COME HOME SAFE....TO MY PROMISED LAND.....SO let my journey begins....

2005-08-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

GOD's WAY TO HEAVEN

I-GOD LOVES YOU AND HE DESIRES THAT YOU:

a.) Have ETERNAL LIFE with HIM (JOHN 3:16).."For God so loved the world that he gave his ONE and ONLY SON,that whoever BELIEVES in him shall not perish but have ETERNAL LIFE"

b.) Have an ABUNDANT and MEANINGFUL LIFE (JOHN 10:10) Jesus is speaking,"I have COME that they may have LIFE and have it to the FULL."
......But most people ARE NOT EXPERIENCING a meaningful life and are not sure that they have eternal life because.....

II-MAN HAS A SIN PROBLEM which SEPARATES him from GOD

a.) EVERYONE has sinned.(ROMANS 3:23) "FOR ALL have sinned and fallshort of the glory of GOD"

b.) The PENALTY of sin is DEATH(ROMANS 6:23) "For the WAGES of sin is death"....The bible talks about TWO KINDS OF DEATH..The first one is PHYSICAL..The second death is SPIRITUAL...or ETERNAL SEPARATION FROM GOD..
(REVELATION (21:8) "But the cowardly,the unbelieving,the vile,the murderers,the sexually immoral,those who practice magic arts,the idolaters,and ALL LIARS-their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur..This is the SECOND DEATH
Since SIN separates man from GOD ,What is the solution to to his problem?

III-JESUS CHRIST IS GOD's ONLY WAY TO HEAVEN

a.) He is the ONLY WAY (JOHN 14:6) JESUS answered,"I AM THE WAY,THE TRUTH ,AND THE LIFE.NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH ME"

b.) He COMPLETELY PAID the PENALTY OF YOUR SINS (COLLOSIANS 21:13) "When you were DEAD in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature,GOD made you ALIVE with CHRIST.He FORGAVE us of ALL OF OUR SINS"

IV-THE RESSURECTION OF JESUS CHRIST FROM THE DEATH....ASSURES US OF OUR ETERNAL LIFE

a.) JESUS died for our sins.He was buried,and was RAISED on the third day.(1 CORINTHIANS 15:3-4) "For what i rECEIVED , I PASSED on to you as of FIRST IMPORTANCE:that CHRIST died for our sins according to the scriptures,that he was buried,that he was raised on the third day according to tha scriptures."

b.) The RESSURECTION OF JESUS CHRIST PROVES THAT HE IS THE SON OF GOD(ROMANS 1:3-4)"Regarding his son,who as to his human nature was a descendent of David ,and who through the spirit of holiness was declared with power to be the son of GOD by his RESSURECTION from the dead:JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD

c.) JESUS PROMISES ETERNAL LIFE (JOHN 11:25-26) JESUS HIMSELF SAID," I am the resurrection and the LIFE.HE who BELIEVES in mewill live even though he dies;and WHOEVER LIVES and BELIEVES IN ME will never die"
Merely KNOWING what JESUS CHRIST has done for us is not ENOUGH

V-WE must PLACE our FAITH IN JESUS CHRIST TO SAVE US

a.) You are saved by the grace of GOD through FAITH in JESUS (EPHESIANS 2:8-9) "For it is by grace,you have been SAVED through FAITH-and this is NOT from yourselves,it is the GIFT OF GOD-NOT by works,so that NO ONE CAN BOAST."..To be saved by faith means to TRUST IN JESUS CHRIST ALONE to save you..Good works are not the means to salvation;rather they are the EVIDENCES or by-products of your salvation

b.) SHOW your FAITH in JESUS CHRIST by ACCEPTING HIS GIFT OF ETERNAL LIFE (REVELATION 3:20) JESUS is speaking,"Here i am!, I STAND at the DOOR and KNOCK.IF ANYONE HEARS MY VOICE and OPENS THE DOOR,I WILL COME AND EAT WITH HIM
You can pray this simple prayer below to express your faithin JESUS CHRIST and RECEIVE HIM INTO YOUR HEART as your LORD and SAVIOR..You only have to PRAY this prayer ONCE into your heart with SINCERITY becauce ONCE he ENTERS your life...NEVER WILL HE LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU..

PRAYER: LORD JESUS,I NEED YOU.I CONFESS THAT I AM A SINNER.I BELIEVE THAT YOU DIED ON THE CROSS TO PAY FOR ALL OF MY SINS..WITH YOUR HELP ,I WLL TURN AWAY FROM ALL OF MY SINS.PLEASE COME INTO MY LIFE AND BE MY LORD AND SAVIOR..I ACCEPT YOUR FREE GIFT OF ETERNAL LIFE..MAKE ME THE KIND OF PERSON YOU WANT ME TO BE..THANK YOU FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE AND GIVING ME ETERNAL LIFE..AMEN
(If you prayed this...CONGRATULATIONS!!!!and welcome to GOD's KINGDOM..SEE YOU IN HEAVEN IN GOD's TIME..TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY)

IF THERE'S ANYONE OUT THERE WHO ARE NOT YET SURE OF THEIR SALVATION..IT IS MY PRAYER THAT THESE "TRUTHS" WILL HELP YOU..IF YOU NEED ME TO PERSONALLY SHARE THIS GOOD NEWS TO YOU,JAZ POST A MESSAGE AT THE COMMENT BELOW...AND I WILL GLADLY ASSIST YOU..IT IS MY PRIVILEDGE TO "WITNESS" YOUR WAY TO HEAVEN...I CAN MEET YOU AT CCF..FOR MORE INFO ABOUT OUR CHURCH..YOU CAN CLICK MY LINKS AT THE LEFT CORNER...GODBLESS US ALL!! :)

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I am FORGIVEN... I am LOVED... I am CHOSEN...

April 20,2003...Christ Commision Fellowship...BackStreetKids Ministry,My first day as a volunteer sunday school assistant teacher...For me, it will just one of the many days of my life...Nothing really so special to celebrate nor to look forward to...that was i thought..but i was absolutely wronged...Little did I know that GOD has a PERFECT PLAN for me on that day...that a NEW DONNA WILL COME OUT....A new creation..That was the day when i finally heard the MOST ROMANTIC LOVE STORY OF ALL TIMES..John3:16..This is the only verse i know in my entire life prior to my re-birth as a Christian..I have learned to memorize this as such a very tender age of 7 or 8..But I must confess that it didn't mean much to me as much as it did for now..I didn't really know what dying in the cross really was..I didn't really know it in my heart...Only in my mind......Then God gave me a very wonderful person as my witness... Ms.Winnie Vivar ....who eventually became my discipler,my friend,my ate,my nanay,my love adviser and most of all my sister in CHRIST..Before I am just an ordinary girl...but now,i am forgiven...loved..and chosen....by NO LESS THAN OUR CREATOR AND SAVIOR HIMSELF.....JESUS.....Since then.....My life has never been the same again....The holy spirit is now in me...not just "INDWELLING".....but by GOD's grace..."FILLING" me....To GOD be all the GLORY...:)

(special tnx to tin for allowing me to use her title hehehehe..love you sis :)